Okay. I’ll admit it.
I wrote about this topic back in February when Dear Hubby sent me two-dozen roses for Valentine’s Day. My entry today is recycled from what I wrote then.
I write about it now only because an incident last night reminded me of February’s lesson.
Dear Daughter, who came home for only a short two-day visit, went with me to see the movie Hairspray last night (a fabulous movie, btw). It was one of those mom-daughter-dates I fully expected to be fun and relaxing (DD and I have a special bond, and we enjoy being with each other). We can giggle together, and Hairspray was just the right movie for us to enjoy if we wanted an evening away to laugh and have fun.
I won’t go into details (my blood pressure still rises when I think about it), but not one minute into arriving someone in the theater treated Sarah and I with rudeness and contempt.
It was the last thing I needed after this week’s stresses at work. It was the last thing Sarah needed coming off 36-hours straight working as an EMT. We were exhausted and fragile.
The interaction soured us both and nearly ruined our night out.
I was ticked off and hurt. Sarah, who is two weeks shy of turning twenty-one, was ready to let this couple have it — full blast, double-barrel, in-your-face, “don’t talk to me that way” kind of reaction.
So there I was trying to keep my confident-self-assured-not-afraid-of-anyone daughter calm, yet trying to rationally deal with these nasty, arrogant people.
I finally turned from them, and told Sarah to drop it and ignore them,. I tried to ignore them (and their gestures) and prayed that God would give me grace to take the higher road.
So I sat there fuming (some higher road, eh?). Through 10 minutes of ads for coke and chef-boyardee. Then through 10 minutes of previews. And then through the start of the movie.
I was still mad, I mean ulcer-producing angry.
I think I was worn out. Work’s been emotionally draining this week, and I haven’t been sleeping well, so I had no margin or threshold to deal with these cynical, sarcastic, senior citizens (yes, the instigators of our encounter were two older people).
But God is bigger than my anger, my human frailty, and my weariness. He’s even bigger than my sinful desire to punish the people in front of us.
Twenty minutes into the movie (nearly an hour after the incident), I began to see this couple for what they were: sad, angry people, self-centered people who think they have to make others feel small so they can feel superior.
Life can’t be fun at their house.
But life is fun (by grace) at mine. :o)
Though it felt like it, I really wasn’t the hurting individual in the movie theater last night. Neither was Sarah. The couple in front of us must have carried far larger wounds to have to be so nasty to complete strangers.
Which brings me back to Valentine’s Day and my earlier post.
When I received flowers from DH in February, I was disappointed: they looked dreary, nearly dead. I suppose that had something to do with their sitting on a plane overnight in sub-zero temperatures (they got stuck in the awful ice storm of February 14, 2007). The bouquet looked ruined.
But I was wrong (not for the first time, nor for the last).
I read the little booklet that came with my flowers, and tucked deep inside were these instructions: “Remove the outer three or four petals. We leave these on your roses to protect the buds in transit.”
So pluck away I did, removing three or four petals from each rosebud.
And underneath, much to my surprise, I found gorgeous, healthy roses just waiting to open.
DH’s Valentine’s gift provided a great lesson I long ago learned but had forgotten:
Don’t trust first impressions.
So many of us wear damage spots, worn emotions, and frayed outer shells; yet beneath all that are precious souls loved by God waiting to blossom and become all God intends them to be.
We just need to look past the wilted edges.
Looking past the wilted edges last night meant I could eventually forgive these folks for nearly ruining what turned out to be a great evening with my sweet girl anyway. It allowed me to pray for them (and not for God’s vengeance!). And it allowed me to not take their outburst and actions personally.
Looking past the edges freed me to love.
Today, perhaps in a less-than-ideal encounter, won’t you join me in looking past the edges?
You may find unexpected beauty, and freedom.
‘Til next time,
Joan
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